我從不認為我特別,也從來不希望自己特別過。
有很長的一大段時間我都致力於讓自己隱形,
只為了讓自己的存在不那麼另人難以忍受,
而我必需努力去愛自己,用盡全力努力去愛那個另我作嘔的自己,
那個過程非常痛苦,可是我只能這麼做,
因為當時我不再有任何人可以依賴,因為我只能靠自己活下去。
所以我改變自己的外表,至少這樣能夠讓我接受自己去喜歡我。
至少能感覺到自己是美的,這是我的底線。
而我更不曾想要過不普通的人生,
不曾想要過半夜在半睡半醒中被帶走,
不曾想要過那些藏匿和追逐,
不曾想要過那些等待、期待、和伴隨而來的失望,
不曾想要過那些威脅和恐懼,
不曾想要過那樣的背叛。
甚至不曾想要堅強、不曾想要思考。
但這些就是我的人生,我或者可以或者不能選擇與改變的人生,
那些造就了現在的我,現在這個我終於能夠坦然去愛的我。
Thank God I'm pretty
The occasional free drink I never asked for
The occasional admission to a seedy little bar
Invitation to a stranger's car
I'm blessed
With the ability to rend a grown man tongue-tied
Which only means that when it's dark outside
I have to run and hide can't look behind me
Thank God I'm pretty
Thank God I'm pretty
Every skill I ever have will be in question
Every ill that I must suffer merely brought on by myself
Though the cops would come for someone else
I'm blessed
I'm truly privilaged to look this good without clothes on
Which only means that when I sing you're jerking off
And when I'm gone you won't remember
Thank God I'm pretty
Thank you God
Oh, lord
Thank you God
Oh, oh and when a gaggle of faces appears around me
It's lucky I hate to be taken seriously
I think my ego would fall right through the cracks in the floor
If I couldn't count on men to slap my ass anymore
I know my destiny's such, that I'm all stocking and curl
So everybody thinks that I'm a fucking suicide girl
Thank you God
For the occasional champagne I never asked for
The occasional admission to a seedy little bar
Invitation to a stranger's car
I'm blessed
With the ability to rend a grown man tongue-tied
Which only means that when it's dark outside
I have to run and hide can't look behind me
Thank God I'm pretty
Thank God
Thank God
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you God!